It was time, time to go to college with a lot of expectations not only for the future but also to start a new phase of life, first time when you think that you are free now, you are an adult it’s time to experiment all the things that you have always imagined doing, that you have seen around happening but somehow you were in boundaries of restriction that you couldn't try, Its time now.
I guess all of us had that same feeling in mind once we were done with school.
I could still remember my 1st day of college where I found few too admissions as couples, few were busy texting their friends, seniors banging doors to take introduction and gave us tasks to do, few seniors gave an extra required help to share no.s of girls and telling them they are just a call away. I remember I refused to do a task and my seniors named me "Mamta Banerjee".
I guess like this observing people around us we unknowingly make connections with them which were likely not based on any give and take, nor we demand and have expectations from them it’s just happening.
As, the days passes by many couples where no more couples, heartbreaks happens tears where on eyes but simultaneously new bonding are starting the new way of supporting each other we were discovering, different ways to bunk classes and escaping from college, kids are no more kids they started exploring things a first day “try is a habit now.”
Few named it as a part of betrayal and few to gain more concentration in studies, there is something my best friend told me who was a part of it " You never start these stuffs for others or for betrayals, you start it because you always wanted to do. It, betrayal was just an excuse to give a reason to the world!” . Somehow, those words touched my heart and could never forget.
Those 4 years of college was a time when many new people peeped into our life, some added value to it, some managed to gain trust and break it simultaneously, some people never promised us anything but silently was there all throughout the time like a pillar never demanding anything nor complaining.
A silent feature at college was you were never alone it was someone or the other to hold your hand and say "It’s ok! I am there."
Slowly, we were all placed now we all got a job and out of college we retained few friends, few couples were no more couples now, although few are trying their best to survive, manage time for family and their partner, few were not placed the frustration of seeing friends getting placed with a job and handsome salary is killing them.
But, it was time, time to be apart if not mentally but physically for sure in different cities, in different countries, far from family, its time when society expects you to be responsible, it’s time to enter a new phase of life.
Some decisions were emotional, somewhere required.
We are alone now we don't know anyone in the city neither our family is nor with us. Every day, new survival strategy need to be found out, in that mean while we are losing our contacts of our dearer ones, time is lacking we cannot be on the phone for hours, struggling to adjust in the new environment, we are bursting with emotions but we don't have enough people to share them or rather to understand the state of mind. It was hilarious once it was a time when two friends used to have a lot of gossips and laughter now it’s changed to the competition of telling who has more difficulties in life, an unknown race we are running but we never want to win. Office politics is a part of life, and survival strategies are the only thing we plan on weekend sitting on a PG with a bed too small to sleep.
It was hard to imagine now what the hobbies are or rather what we are good at all our skills have gone for toss. Rather, it just “we don't have time."
It’s the time we realize and remember how small things matters how our room unknowingly became the dream place to take a peace nap, those small memories on the lanes of your city.
It’s the time we are fuzzed up in our mind we pretend to be happy, half of the time we are sad, we pretend to dwell happily in all decisions, we look for a support but we are scared of betrayal.
It's time now wrap up the old thoughts, old feelings, grudges it’s not easy, though, but we can all try rather than swirling within old memories.
Somehow we have all lost ourselves with time, changed with time, maybe an unknown demand it was. But, it's time again, time to live our life the way we wanted not what society wants us to do.
Mental Peace is what we are looking for!
We remember the lesson learnt and start living the life the way you wanted.